Throughout high school, I was never satisfied with my body. I envied my sisters who were thin and athletic and could share clothes
I hated exercise when I was younger. PE class in elementary and middle school was my least favorite class because I could not keep up with everyone and I felt like everyone was criticizing and taking advantage of that. I was always picked last to be on teams and wasn’t treated like everyone else. Fast forward to the summer after 5th grade when I needed a major surgery for severe scoliosis. I had a spinal fusion from T1-T12 (the whole thoracic spine) and was on bed rest for the rest of the summer and into the beginning of the fall school year. My doctor said that I would never be able to participate in contact sports and that I would need to be careful with other strenuous exercise. I had a personal trainer when I was in middle school but always hated going. I didn’t enjoy PE in high school either. I tried out for volleyball my freshman year but didn’t make the team. Throughout high school, I was never satisfied with my body. I envied my sisters who were thin and athletic and could share clothes. It wasn’t until the summer after I graduated high school that I started working out. I quickly noticed how my body was changing and how much energy I had. I eventually got a personal trainer, learned how to eat better to fuel my body, and saw my own transformation. This was my first aha! moment. Another big aha! moment came when I visited a health and fitness spa during my freshman year in college. I loved every aspect of fitness, wellness, and spirituality that this resort embodies and my life had been changed for the better. Throughout the following 10 years of returning to the spa every year, I developed a passion for movement and mindfulness that I am not sure I would have found if I never went to this resort. About 4 years ago, I decided to try a private yoga lesson at the resort. I was very cautious about yoga previously because of my back, but the care and joy that my instructor brought to my practice made me feel like I didn’t have to be as flexible or as daring as someone else and that it is okay to listen to my body. Over the next few years returning to the spa, I continued to work with the same instructor and she watched me grow in my practice.
When I returned to the spa back in March of this year, I decided that it was time to try something new since my instructor was not there. I had a private Zumba lesson and a private Pilates reformer lesson. Now more than I have in the past, I love every aspect of how different forms of movement make my body feel. Upon returning home from the spa, I felt a sense of emptiness that I did not have when I was there. I needed to complement my strength training sessions and yoga lessons with something else. I had been wanting to try Orangetheory since a studio recently opened close to my house and another class using a megaformer (I would describe this as a combination of barre and Pilates reformer but on a machine that is referred to as a reformer on steroids!). It’s not as scary as it sounds! Not only have a gained a sense of peace with my body, but I have found a balance and variety with my exercise regimen that makes me happy and brings me joy.
In the coming weeks (on Fridays!) look for glimpses into my workout routine 🙂