I am the happiest in my life right. now. Growing up I dealt with a lot of anxiety and I still battle with it frequently. In the last 10 years I have also battled bouts of depression that were almost debilitating because I could not get my mind of what happened in my past and what could have happened if I did or did not do this or that. I was wishing for things that were not realistic and this was taking away from my quality of life and overall happiness. After high school and through the several years following, I would wish that things had been different like going back to the school where I went to elementary school, being in a sorority, or other little things that don’t really matter now because I ended up exactly where I want to be in my life right now. I would tell my younger self that everyone is on their own path, will find their way, and the way is different for everyone, but that the end will be in sight when the time is appropriate.
All of the valuable turning points in my life that led me where I am are special and my current self would not change a thing. I would not have met two inspiring teachers my freshman year of high school who would become my mentors through my four years there. If I went back to my old school after 8th grade where my sisters were we never would have met. If I had not had my two major surgeries I may have been more active and I would not have experienced a weight loss and fitness journey. If I had a large friend group, enjoyed drinking, and went to high school parties, I would have gone on spring break trips with my friends and would have never discovered the health and wellness spa that I would return to every year for years to come and that changed my life forever. I wouldn’t be sharing with you right now because this place is where I met the person who has inspired my life and has made me the happiest person I can be where I am right now. Every experience is valuable in some way even if the experience does not evoke happy emotions. A surgery, changing schools, or any other experience that causes vulnerability or makes us unsettled may be a blessing that we don’t realize until the future.